Well, shit. It’s been about a week
since I’ve been told to start doing this and I guess I might as well. I should
probably introduce myself. My name is Jackson Wring Dean. Yes, my middle name
is odd. Anyway, I call myself Jax, I’ve been doing this since I was about 6,
and that was about 17 years ago. I am 23 years old, as you could have found out
by doing math. I live in New York and I do writing and photography as a
profession; I work as a writer for a newspaper that doesn’t get printed where I
live. I live in Syracuse, New York, and have been my entire life. I’ve only
ever been to Florida and South/North Carolina, but other than that I’ve always
been in New York.
All of that aside, I have issues.
Mainly sleeping issues. I have had insomnia my entire life and get about 4 hours
of sleep every day. I very rarely remember my dreams, until recently (which is
due to this blog), and when I do it’s usually unpleasant. Along with my sleep
issues, I’ve had issues with family. My mother left me as a child long ago and
my father died recently, actually, in a car crash (he survived for a few hours
after the crash, died to internal bleeding and I believe something to do with
injuries to the spinal cord), and I have one brother who lives somewhere in
Europe (I believe he moves between Poland, Germany, and Sweden because of some
sort of job related thing) named John Dean. I have little information about my
mother, hell I don’t even know her name, nor do I care who she is. She left me
and my brother when we were one and twelve years old, respectively.
My doctor recently told me to start
writing down my dreams if they seem awry, and to write down my day. You see,
because of my lack of sleep I hallucinate a lot. I usually don’t let it get to
me, recently it’s been very annoying and I see shit that doesn’t make sense
(water droplets just floating around, seeing people as if they were from a
1920’s black and white film, etc.), and sometimes some of them scare me, like
seeing people who are hung by the neck from lightpoles during the day with
people just walking/driving past them.
Anyway, so, I hope this does it for
you Doc Kale.
~Jax
